Girl Power

Don't know why, recently I'm so crazy into fashion and shopping, try every possible way to buy clothes and accessories that I saw in those Japanese magazine.


After some time searching and looking around, I think that things that I want are mostly out of my budget, such as clothes from Forever21, Cotton On and Topshop. To be honest, Topshop is the most expensive ones, kinda envy those who can buy Topshop clothes and accessories without have to save up all their lunch money.


Been thinking and planning to do some low budget outfit of the day post and yet still stylish and sticking to the current Japanese fashion trend! How does it sounds like??? :D


But first, I have to get a full body mirror tho hahaha.




Some stuff I bought last week.

• Earrings. So many to choose from and all of them are so lovely. The white leather tassels earrings is what I love most. The Vivienne Westwood and colorful owl earrings are good match for casual outfit.


• Lacey socks! I've been searching high and low for this kind of socks and finally F Block brings 'em in! It's a bit pricey tho but still, I love 'em an can't wait to put it on!


• Lollipop colours nail polishes from The Face Shop and they're selling 3 bottles for RM12! The colours are vibrant after 2 coats of application and the shimmers are so glittery even my mum loves it.

人生无常

这世上，所有的东西都有一个使用期限，这包括了我们 - 人类。


最近发生的种种，让我领悟到了 ＂人生无常＂这四个字，让我真正的感觉到心里跳动着时所感受的感觉，是那么的超乎想像的真实。


其实，对于我的人生，我都抱着＂既来之则安之＂的态度。笑着哭着，大悲大喜的过日子。有些朋友更以我的生活里发生的事加以「极端」这个词来形容。怎么说呢，也许对于普遍的人，我的生活确实是过于绚丽，对于他们来说，我像是个不能被控制的脱缰野马，正在往一个谁也不知道的方向奔驰而去，大家都替我担心着，焦急着，有些更加离得我远远的，深怕被我牵连。


是的，无可否认，目前我的状态极度不佳，失去了很多很多对生活的热忱，完全提不起劲，甚至有时候连喜怒哀乐都开始感到有些麻木了。我不知道我是怎么了，也有些人提议我去看医生，我想如果这种消极的情况持续下去的话，看心理医生接受辅导是在所难免了。


也许，我真的是一个不擅长表达内心自我的一个人吧。很多时候，我都把面具一戴，而自己浑然不知。隐藏了很多很多自己的想法，因为完全没有信心那些想法会被哪一个人接受。有许多话想说的，可是到了嘴边，却说了另一番话。这种一个人两个面，甚至多个面的我一直在生活着，压抑着，呼吸着，却无法真正的活着。


人们把他们看见的我，当成是真正的我，但是其实我知道，他们看见的，是我显现给他们看见的一部分，而其他部分的，他们就那样抹杀了存在的可能性。


每个人，都活得好不容易，都有他们必需背负的战争与挣扎。我们看见的，只是表面，可是在每个毛孔之下所流动的血液和那我们无法触碰的感受，是我们永远都无法明白的一种精神领域，正是为什么我们谁都不能轻易的评论另一个人的原因。


今天，我好朋友的婆婆即将出殡。在我眼里，她是一位慈祥的婆婆，和蔼可亲，我朋友和她家人都很敬爱她。昨晚去上香给她，看见我朋友提起她并哭了的模样，我的眼泪也不禁在眼眶里打滚。


让我记忆深刻的，是婆婆的福州菜肴，和在我朋友15岁生日会那天她亲手做的蜜瓜西米露。那些婆婆拿手的好滋味，我想再也无法品尝了。


婆婆，一路好走哦。

春末

It's May already!!!

Currently doing nothing much, still wandering, and yes, according to someone I'm a person who didn't accomplish anything.

Lol.

Anyway, currently being in the fucking confused state of mind, didn't know what to do, really.

I'm blogging this just for the sake of blogging, so please don't feel angry if you feel you've wasted your life reading this post. Lol.

Bought a new iPod touch casing at Pasar Malam last week. Themed: Double Decker bus. RM15.

Love it.

Heading out for dinner and yumcha + catching up session, then midnight movie!

Happy month of May to all of you.
(^_−)−☆

BMW

Congratulations to BMW Wearnes Autohaus for their Grand Opening last week. I feel so happy that I'm one of the model for their fashion show presentation, in Jendela KL's outfits and presenting Artisan & Artist products.


Seriously love the feeling to be on stage, cat-walking around with beautiful make-up and outfits on. It's one of the moment that makes me feel that I'm actually useful and be able to achieve something.


Thank you to Amber Chia Academy for this wonderful opportunity. I'm so happy to work with all the models too. Really love each and everyone of them to bits! We're not as cool as we look. Crazy to be honest. Lol!


p.s: I really do hope that my effort in this industry can be seen... I'll be putting more and more effort to become a successful model. Gambatte, Reiko!

Titanic

Watched Titanic in 3D, and yes, felt different kind of feelings since last view, and have a lot mixed feelings.


Suddenly a question le bf asked this afternoon popped up during the credit of the movie: How long is a whole life? （一辈子有多长？）(pardon moi suck translation)


It can be long it can be short. It depends how you live it. Just like how did Rose live hers in this movie, how did Jack lived his, and how does everyone does.


Even though my mind is a bit confused by now, but I really hope that things can clear up for me to see what I really need to do with this life of my own.


So I guess in the mean time....
Outfit of the day time!