P.S: Reunion with secondary schoolmate is funneh! Nostalgic!!!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Faulty
I had two quite massive and serious argument/debate with my family members, in just 2 days. Gosh my heart and soul was so exhausted I actually need a proper rest and clear this thing out of my mind from blog it out. And yes, I don't care if 'you' read this or not because this is MY blog.
(From this sentence, you know that this is going to be 'ALL WORDS NO PICS POST'... Come back soon for future post.)
Seriously, being a family for about 22 years++ means what? And to be frank, do you think you know the real me? My personality, my habits, my likes and dislikes, do you know about these?
Does elder generation means they're right all the time, and no matter what they say, younger generation have to follow and obey without questioning/telling/debate/argue with the facts they know? Is this really what you want from me? Is really 'older' means 'superior' and 'younger' means 'they're a bunch of naive thinking kids that won't learn from experience'?
No, I seriously think YOU GUYS ARE THE ONE THAT HAS MIND/THINKING MODULE PROBLEM.
I always feel grateful that I have a complete family even though I don't really get to talk to my dad because he's mostly drunk on the weekdays and my mum is always busy with finding more money through all her sales and stuffs. Yeah, we don't communicate much.
Communication failure, and they don't really show a good example to me, what am I suppose to do? Who is my role model of life? Who can I talk to about things that going inside my mind without judging me right or wrong? Where can I seek advices from which is not bias, conservative and full of own self thoughts? I always bear these questions with me in my life since I was small.
People say: How your kids behave are the EXACT REPLICA of what/how/who you are. BINGO!!! I guess that I'm really the daughter of my father and mother because I'm behaving exactly like how they are without myself noticing that I am behaving like them.
I refuse to be like them, I don't want to be like them. As I've said earlier, they're not really my role model of life, but my genes refuse to let me lie to myself, I am someone like them. This really, really saddens me a lot. I always thought that I am someone better.
How can you guys assume me that 'you are always like this' or 'you are always like that'? Do you really understand me enough to say that? Even me myself doesn't understand myself, who are you to judge me. and more so, whether I'm right or wrong?
We always saw the flaws in other people. We thought that they're flawed, but we didn't realise that ourselves are human being too. Not one human in this world is perfect/flawless, so do me and you. You really think that I will behave like that without anything trigger my emotion/anger? You really think that we can clap with only one side of hand? Think about it again.
I don't go angry/emotional without anything that triggers my inner side, have you question yourself on how/what words/attitude you're using when you talk to me? What saddens me? You only see that I'm the one that acting rage and raving up but you didn't see that who started it first. Is this my fault too, and I'm the one to be blame because someone triggers my emotion and I react?
Older really doesn't mean that you're more superior than me. We both are human, human make mistakes. Maybe you live a longer life and see more things/incidents than me but do all the things you know will help me make my way to live the life I wanted to live? Or you're helping me to live the life YOU WANTING ME to live?
I really appreciate all the help you have given me all the time, all these years. I'm really thankful that you did not just leave me when I need help. Really. But please don't come and claim all the credits in front of me and complaint you got nothing from helping me, you're disappointed or so or so because you know what? If you want to help me sincerely with all your heart, you don't go around and tell people 'Oh! I helped her and she just treat me like shit'. You don't know how hurt that is to me. I've been trying so hard to find ways to repay you and you have no idea what I've been through.
What do you expect from me really? I'll be thankful if you don't hurt me with all those words again. It really hurts me so bad I really felt that I owe you guys a lot. I felt that I'm not suppose to be in this family and sometimes I felt that I should just leave, walk away just like that. Now you know what saddens me and triggers all the emotion in me. I'm just a weak person, not as strong as you see me and I get hurt very, very often and easily.
If I were capable, I will not hesitate to give everything you're dreaming of to you. If I were rich, I will not be stingy and will spoil you with lots and lots of material things that I am affordable of. If I were...... The problem here is: I'm still not in track and finding the right path to live my very own life, how do I suppose to show my appreciation now? I will be so happy that all we're talking are about happy stuffs that happens in life, not complaining like 'it's been quite some time I haven't seen you I thought you were living in US or some other country' or waste both of our time, energy and lives in argument.
I have my own life, my own time, my own things to do and I will be very appreciate that you don't really interrupt my plans in life with your opinionated suggestions and go all rage if I don't really adapt what you're telling me. Please, I'm not you, and I'm not a kid anymore. I really do know what should I do, how can I do it and what will I achieve/get if I do this or that, you don't really have to guide me through everything and always think that I can't handle my life my own.
Each and everyone of us are here with a purpose. I am me, whether you like it or not. I didn't request to be born in this world, I don't have a choice to choose who are my family members and I definitely have my own opinion/plan/thinking module. Respect me as a person and I'll respect you. You trigger my emotion of course, unless I'm dead or something, if not I definitely will have reaction right?
Our relationship are not so fond since now and then, please don't worsen the situation with your 'superior' thinking/talking. I need a friend that walk beside me, together, in my life, not someone who leads and walks in front of me without listening to what I really wanted to say.
(From this sentence, you know that this is going to be 'ALL WORDS NO PICS POST'... Come back soon for future post.)
Seriously, being a family for about 22 years++ means what? And to be frank, do you think you know the real me? My personality, my habits, my likes and dislikes, do you know about these?
Does elder generation means they're right all the time, and no matter what they say, younger generation have to follow and obey without questioning/telling/debate/argue with the facts they know? Is this really what you want from me? Is really 'older' means 'superior' and 'younger' means 'they're a bunch of naive thinking kids that won't learn from experience'?
No, I seriously think YOU GUYS ARE THE ONE THAT HAS MIND/THINKING MODULE PROBLEM.
I always feel grateful that I have a complete family even though I don't really get to talk to my dad because he's mostly drunk on the weekdays and my mum is always busy with finding more money through all her sales and stuffs. Yeah, we don't communicate much.
Communication failure, and they don't really show a good example to me, what am I suppose to do? Who is my role model of life? Who can I talk to about things that going inside my mind without judging me right or wrong? Where can I seek advices from which is not bias, conservative and full of own self thoughts? I always bear these questions with me in my life since I was small.
People say: How your kids behave are the EXACT REPLICA of what/how/who you are. BINGO!!! I guess that I'm really the daughter of my father and mother because I'm behaving exactly like how they are without myself noticing that I am behaving like them.
I refuse to be like them, I don't want to be like them. As I've said earlier, they're not really my role model of life, but my genes refuse to let me lie to myself, I am someone like them. This really, really saddens me a lot. I always thought that I am someone better.
How can you guys assume me that 'you are always like this' or 'you are always like that'? Do you really understand me enough to say that? Even me myself doesn't understand myself, who are you to judge me. and more so, whether I'm right or wrong?
We always saw the flaws in other people. We thought that they're flawed, but we didn't realise that ourselves are human being too. Not one human in this world is perfect/flawless, so do me and you. You really think that I will behave like that without anything trigger my emotion/anger? You really think that we can clap with only one side of hand? Think about it again.
I don't go angry/emotional without anything that triggers my inner side, have you question yourself on how/what words/attitude you're using when you talk to me? What saddens me? You only see that I'm the one that acting rage and raving up but you didn't see that who started it first. Is this my fault too, and I'm the one to be blame because someone triggers my emotion and I react?
Older really doesn't mean that you're more superior than me. We both are human, human make mistakes. Maybe you live a longer life and see more things/incidents than me but do all the things you know will help me make my way to live the life I wanted to live? Or you're helping me to live the life YOU WANTING ME to live?
I really appreciate all the help you have given me all the time, all these years. I'm really thankful that you did not just leave me when I need help. Really. But please don't come and claim all the credits in front of me and complaint you got nothing from helping me, you're disappointed or so or so because you know what? If you want to help me sincerely with all your heart, you don't go around and tell people 'Oh! I helped her and she just treat me like shit'. You don't know how hurt that is to me. I've been trying so hard to find ways to repay you and you have no idea what I've been through.
What do you expect from me really? I'll be thankful if you don't hurt me with all those words again. It really hurts me so bad I really felt that I owe you guys a lot. I felt that I'm not suppose to be in this family and sometimes I felt that I should just leave, walk away just like that. Now you know what saddens me and triggers all the emotion in me. I'm just a weak person, not as strong as you see me and I get hurt very, very often and easily.
If I were capable, I will not hesitate to give everything you're dreaming of to you. If I were rich, I will not be stingy and will spoil you with lots and lots of material things that I am affordable of. If I were...... The problem here is: I'm still not in track and finding the right path to live my very own life, how do I suppose to show my appreciation now? I will be so happy that all we're talking are about happy stuffs that happens in life, not complaining like 'it's been quite some time I haven't seen you I thought you were living in US or some other country' or waste both of our time, energy and lives in argument.
I have my own life, my own time, my own things to do and I will be very appreciate that you don't really interrupt my plans in life with your opinionated suggestions and go all rage if I don't really adapt what you're telling me. Please, I'm not you, and I'm not a kid anymore. I really do know what should I do, how can I do it and what will I achieve/get if I do this or that, you don't really have to guide me through everything and always think that I can't handle my life my own.
Each and everyone of us are here with a purpose. I am me, whether you like it or not. I didn't request to be born in this world, I don't have a choice to choose who are my family members and I definitely have my own opinion/plan/thinking module. Respect me as a person and I'll respect you. You trigger my emotion of course, unless I'm dead or something, if not I definitely will have reaction right?
Our relationship are not so fond since now and then, please don't worsen the situation with your 'superior' thinking/talking. I need a friend that walk beside me, together, in my life, not someone who leads and walks in front of me without listening to what I really wanted to say.
RP365-44
Auspicious number again, number 44 for my Reiko's Project 365.
This is the last photo that my Nikon camera captured. I can still remember the texture of smooth, snow flakey ice and taste of sweet sweet chocolate toppings.
Bun have just agreed to pay installments for new camera, now, it's my turn to ask help from my parents. *cross fingers*
Hopefully can get camera as soon as possible, really feel so lifeless these few days. Everything seems so wrong. Sigh.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
RP365-42
I am so, so, so sad yesterday, and today, and maybe for the whole week or so on.
I've been bringing this camera around for more than 1 year. I had it since 8th of August 2008. 080808, auspicious enough.
The relationship between me and it is soooo intimate I bring it everywhere I go. I snap almost of anything with it. I know it like the back of my hands I can handle it every well. I know what is the best timing to use what mode to capture great picture.
It has captured sooooooo many beautiful photos, I've shared most of them in this blog, but now... It's gone.
I can't stop myself from thinking of it. A piece of my heart seems have been carried away by it's leaving too.
Seriously, I feel like crying now..........
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
RP365-41
P.S: What I wore to bai nian on Monday. Reminds me of vacation and summer breeze. I want!!!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
RP365-35
P.S: This Fatt-king HUGE cicada scared the hell out of me. T_______T
P.S2: My mother-in-law is insect queen, my father-in-law is fly king. Both of them aren't afraid of insects and able to catch flies with bare hands. O_O!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
RP365-31
P.S: Having reunion dinner with all the loved ones now under the starlights. Happy Chinese New Year. :)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Sun Moulin is ♥
Hi hi~ This is 'Nerdy' Reiko blogging here. While Reiko is busy-ing with her son, husband, houseworks and relatives-related stuffs, I'm here to help her update her blog to avoid you guys from being boring and got nothing to read.
*This is how 'Nerdy' Reiko a.k.a ME!!! looks like.
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*Although I'm nerdy, but I'm as vain as Reiko. (continue to takes more photos)
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*Vain to the max! Muahahaha~ Who say nerd cannot vain one?*
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*Vain gao gao!!!*
*I guess this is his first outing after his haircut. Seriously I still can't get use to his shorter hair look.
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Went to OneU (again), and the traffic around OneU is horrible, terrible and vegetable!!! WTF! Seriously those who lived around OneU doesn't find it annoying meh? Everyday have to jam jam jam. Wait for traffic lights - jam, wait to get ticket for parking - jam, searching for parking space - jam. Damn stress betul!!!
And people who lives around there seems enjoying the traffic congestion so much. I guess I'm really not a PJ/Damansara person. I love Setapak area more than anything. And this shows the nerdy side of me again, students area. Haha.
Anyway, before went around, Bun is hungry and he already planned (early early planned inside his mind) that he wants to try the ShihLin's Oyster Mee Suah. One of Taiwan's delicacies.
*Lots of thick soup, raw oysters, greenies and mee sua. It tasted like bonito flakes. LOL! And I don't dare to try the RAW oyster, I dislikes clam-type seafood. RM6 per bowl.*
*When it comes to ShihLin, how can I not order this XXL Chicken Fillet? Crunchy, a bit spicy and juicy, tender chicken meat. Yum yum yum~!!! RM6
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The tiny lil store of ShihLin is driving us crazy. Definitely not for someone who has a 1 years old+ kid. It's totally a mess! LOL! Pity the waiter who have to clean up all the mess that Xuan Xuan did. (Sorry!)
Can't even finish the XXL Chicken fillet while we're dining at the shop. Have to go sit at the bench to continue eating. For me, one XXL Chicken fillet is more than enough. I don't even have to eat anything else for the whole afternoon, money saving perhaps?
We're suppose to look for more clothes for Xuan Xuan but that day is just not our day. Xuan Xuan keeps on throwing tantrum, crying and yelling while we're looking around. WTH!!! We gave up shop more for his clothes and go to Toys 'R' us instead.
*Hugging Barney running here and there.*
*And he throws away Barney after I gave him a fluffy dog. Haha! Sorry Barney, I prefer dogs more than you. Xuan Xuan definitely looks cute cuddling the plushie!
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*This is madness! Everytime I visit this Toys 'R' Us outlet, all the plushies sure lying on the floor one, or they never put these back to the shelves? LOL!*
*All the smaller plushies for babies/toddlers.*
*Okay, this fella is not baby anymore, he demands a fight with me. Nyehehehe~ Too bad he lost the game!*
*He finds it's useless to fight more, he turns to play slide. LOL! This slide is uber dangerous IMO, kids who can't get the grip will be easily drop off from the side of the slide. This slide costs RM499 some more. SIAO!!!
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*This is more safe. At least he doesn't drop off from the slide easily like previous ones.*
*LOL! This facial expression is EPIC! While he's playing with the car, suddenly the steering wheel loses and he manage to pull it out. Me and Bun pretended like we're shocked and he's in deep shit. Hahahaha! I think he almost cry and seriously thought he's in deep shit. LOL! Poor him we scared him like this. 
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*Ok, Nerdy Reiko pretending to be idiotic. LOL!*
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We doesn't go around much after Toys 'R' Us, in fact we spend most of the time inside Toys 'R' Us. What a boring day for us adults.
Anyway, before we're heading back home, I demanded Bun to go to Sun Moulin with me because I wanna have a look. Seriously, I just wanna have a look what Sun Moulin have to offer. (I thought there were some promotions/discounts/offer going on... But it seems not.)
While I'm browsing through all the pastries they have in their cake display fridge, I can't take my eyes off of the strawberry shortcake! They're like... the PRETTIEST strawberry shortcake! (Once, there were a Japanese bakery shop called Opera but all of them closed down. Their strawberry shortcake are the prettiest. But since it's no longer available so Sun Moulin's strawberry shortcake will take the place from now on.)
I was hesitating to buy or not to buy. While I'm thinking, I saw there's some strawberry tarts, and immediately I thought of Xiaxue's cravings for Delifrance's strawberry tart. LOL! Okay, that definitely makes me wanna try the strawberry tart from Sun Moulin. (This also shows that whatever Xiaxue advertise, sure leave impact on her blog readers.)
RM5.50 per strawberry tart is not cheap, but definitely tastier than all those bakery shops at my area have to offer. And I'm too, amazed by how fast Bun agreed to let me buy the strawberry tart. Muahahahaha~ Thank you hubby!!!
*ZOMG Sun Moulin pastry!*
*Strawberry tart comes with gold glossy paper, so glam!!!*
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*Take a close look at all those juicy sweet strawberries and almond flakes. OMG I'm drooling now!!
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*Die die must take photo with strawberry tart. Strawberry tart looks sooooo sweet and I look so chubby wtfwrongangletothemaxevenphotoshopcan'tfixit!!!!
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*I seriously think this should be a significant Sun Moulin Strawberry Tart advertisement picture or whatsoever. Love the contrast of Reiko x Strawberry Tart! Haha. Buay paiseh.
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*Needless to say how tasty it is. Go buy yours NOW NOW NOW!!!! (I wish there's Sun Moulin at Ipoh.
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Weather at Ipoh is ZOMFGHOTTOTHEMAX I don't feel like going out AT ALL!!! The temperature rise to the max from 11a.m till sunset. WTF!!!! Long enough to sunburn you and can even bbq your flesh into bak gua for this coming CNY since all the bak gua so expensive nowadays. 
Everyone bath with cold water during daytime. There's no exception even for a 1 years old+ Xuan Xuan, but fred not, pipe water isn't flowing cold water, in fact the water are like 23 - 25 degree celcius, can even save money for not turning on water heater. Haha. 
Okay, I guess I'll have to stop here. Have to draft for the LG Chocolate BL40 phone contest, only 4 days left!!! (Please please please God of creativity and inspiration, bless me with all the creativity and inpiration pleaseeeee!!!) Tata!
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