Self-Esteem

Got very very very low.... It's been a while I degrade myself. Maybe today is just another emo day.

Suddenly I felt that I am not the person that I think I am... Or in another words, I am not that good/perfect as I thought I am...

I wonder that deep down inside did I compare myself with others that their goodness/perfect level is unreachable? I think somehow I did. I want myself to be as good as them but I know it's somehow impossible. This really hurts me a lot...

I don't what can I do to improve myself. I've been standing at the same spot for quite some time and I can do nothing about it. Can I do something about it? I'm not really sure about it too. Everything to me, seems so unstable, I can't even get a grip of my own self.

There's so many things I wanna do, I dream of doing, I wish I had done it but none of them really did I do. Argh, I really wanna bang my head to the wall now, like NOW!!!!!

2009 has come to its end... Looking back, I see myself achieve nothing. What another perfect reason to be totally emo!

Great! Raining cats and dogs some more, I think mother earth feel the pain in me too.